2019 Reflections

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All I can say is that 2019 was one heck of a roller coaster ride and I can’t wait to usher in more inner and outer peace for 2020. Many thanks for all of my family and friends who got me through this year. You know who you are.

I’m in the process of creating my 2020 vision board and this was a little graphic that I created on my plane ride home from NYC to CA. I feel pretty good about it, considering how the ride was pretty turbulent.

Below are a few questions to ask myself (and yourself!) before the new year — credit goes to @wnrstweets who runs the awesome instagram of “we’re not really strangers”.

1. What’s one small way you can become a better person in 2020? For others? For yourself? A small way that I can become a better person next year is to practice more mindfulness and be more consistent with taking care of my mental and physical health. It’s been an incredibly hard first few months as a first year teacher, and I want to become better at what I’m doing. But first, I have to take care of myself before I can “take care” of my students. Headspace has been great (if you’re an educator, you get free membership). A friend recently introduced me to Better Help and I’ve been matched with a wonderful therapist. I want to get back into House dancing at the studio that I used to go to over the summer and I want to make it a bi-weekly practice to go there.

2. What are you holding onto currently that’s no longer serving you? Why are you holding on? What’s one small step you can take towards releasing it? Lately, I’ve been internalizing unproductive thoughts of myself that do not serve me in any way. Without going to much into detail (because I have to unpack a lot these beliefs), I am promising myself that in 2020, I will be more consistent with channeling authenticity while amplifying certain traits that will serve me better in certain moments. I am recognizing that there are situations that call for less flexibility and more firmness, and situations that call for more observation and less imagination.

3. Set a goal for 2020 that excites you. Set a goal that scares you. One goal for 2020 that excites me is to travel this summer! Maybe I’ll be able to travel to some of the countries bordering the Caribbean Sea since most of my students are from Guyana, Trinidad, Puerto Rico, and Dominican Republic.  A goal that scares me is to be able to join a House cypher and do like a 10 second freestyle. Just the idea of it is freaking me out but I’d like to get to these dancer’s level of confidence some day:

4. What do you want to be a student of in 2020? I want to be a student of my students! There’s still so much I need to learn about meeting their specific learning needs. So much still for me to learn about building relationships with them.

5. Who in your life deserves the biggest thank you for this year? Let them know if you can? My mom, pops, sister, brother, bffs, friends, professors, classmates, mentors, and mentor teachers!

6. What can you thank yourself for this year? I am thanking myself for not giving up on my dreams.

7. What have you outgrown this year? I have outgrown the belief that I am not enough.

8. What’s an important boundary that you’d like to set for 2020? Being a teacher is not all there is to life! Setting stricter boundaries between work and non-work life will be a challenge, but I am determined to find a sustainable balance.

9. What’s a memory this past year that makes you smile just thinking about? My Student-Teacher Exhibit featuring my students’ artwork. I was so happy to see some of students come to the exhibit.



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